1963 Pillin 1980

William Pillin

I confront the star-spell of the esplanade!

I walk as jaunty as a sailor

among fortune-tellers, dancers, gymnasts,

among gamblers, among all sorts of gypsies.

Necromantic presences mingle among us:

this cute whore is Phryne, sister of moonlights,

this old Jew under a streetlight is Merlin;

Shaharazad serves coffee and pancakes

and Sinbad lures the unwary with trinkets.

I have an illusion of freedom

and it may well be a prelude to trouble.

Who cares? This is a magical evening!

All things assume a novel succulence; clusters

of black grapes, sausages, pastries.

I am avid, like a cat in the jungle

seduced by a scent of musk or civet.

In blue-bright air flares are falling

to dissolve on restaurants, wineshops,

dance-halls and dimly lit interiors

from one of which (an obscure shrine of Pan?)

we hear a bacchic wail of clarinets.

Here is a café where Lesbians gather

and here is a place where, they tell me,

anything can happen. The unpredictable

lures like an unwritten poem. All else failing

one could shoot down a bomber or witness

a piquant disrobing in a penny arcade.

I turn sadly back to my curfewed suburb

of discreet doorways and subdued lamplights.

What is lacking here, what tang, what tonic?

Nocturnal laughters and musical whispers

have been exiled to the sea-edge

by the police and jeering merchants.

Held by a dangerous moonlight

between cold stones and colder water

life's subtle djinns clamor for release.


     -from Pavane For A Fading Memory, 1963

Reprinted in To The End Of Time, Poems New And Selected (1939-1979), Papa Bach Editions: Los Angeles, 1980.

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 Kelyn Roberts 2017